kimochi da ne~

not saying i'm terribly overjoyed, or smiling like a sappy lovestrucked puppy at the computer screen, but, i guess right now, it feels like a load's been taken off my chest.

..after having achieved my credit average. two credits and a pass for my last semester, which is an up from the previous semester. i need to get my game back up. can't be so distracted like i was previously during the later part of '07 and earlier part of '08. can't afford to stuff up again.

...and making amends. grudges just make my heart die faster. to re-visit old friendships. and to take it with a pinch of salt, knowing well what we did wrong previously (which resulted in the spat). here's to another new year ahead (with you?) and i will pay you back! just tell me how much i owe you. :P

...not forgetting, coming to terms with the fact that you cannot like someone. stepping back a little, i think i can see things better this way, from afar. you're not right for me :P but you are a good guy (albeit with your little quirks + slightly manipulative nature, but hey, everyone's human :)) all the best with your new girl. oh and just so you know, ciggs are called "tabako" in japanese (just don't go overboard alright) safe journeys!

so far my holidays have been made up of springing surprises on everyone, myself included.

never thought i would bother to train it all the way to cabra just to bum at diep's place (and navigating him all the way down to from cabra to my place :D). sprung one on my sisters (and granny) when he decided to stay for dinner and tutor my little sis, oh and teaching that someone basic piano too. XD metronome sway~

catching up with the guys at muli's and practising my half-baked mahjong skills, and learning army chess (i still stand by my case of sheer beginner's luck. XD) and cooking for the whole bunch of guys. sigh, imagine if me and cathy weren't there. DISASTER.

organising the j-friends outing and so many ppl bailing on me! D: but in the end, still stuck to it, and it was a cosy one of just anita, tomo, daishin and myself. always 2 is good! maki put on a really good northern accent in this film!

and then surprising myself; after an evening of contemplation, i decided to crash his party. on the same night of the j-friends outing. i felt like there has to be some sort of explanation and closure to certain things. :)

and it feels great, to have done all that

can't wait for the rest of the holidays.