よこそ /22. sydney is my current abode. singapore is where my heart has always been.
loves my God and my family. is a chronic messy room-neat appearence girl.
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最近 /happy 1st of december!
i just had an epiphany
one two three four tell me that you love me more.
first day back into the grind.
友達へ /bethanyipc ame andrea athalie emily eunice erinn evelyn jofid jordan lee man mandy mingfei ning phoebe tammy vicki william zhihui
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//Saturday, May 31, 2008 10:51 pm
dear all, i shall be converting to nerd mode in the upcoming 3-4 weeks so don't expect much of an update unless something really drastic in my life happens, i.e.: i wake up one day to the unexpected ability of rattling off in fluent japanese.
all the best to my fellow crammers! 8)
//Thursday, May 22, 2008 2:20 am
loving this song at the moment.
Stolen - Dashboard Confessional"if only someone could sing that to me, or invoke such feelings in me that i can sing that. truly. "
mm let's see, aaron raging today. ouchies. my bad on trying to peek into your presentation. SORRY!
yest, played bball with some of the guys and jaja. omg what's the world coming to, i'm actually starting to venture into trying my hand at sports. lolgasp. XD
seriously can't understand this father that i have. he calls me a rebel. and he hates it. if you stop being so oppressing maybe i will consider that, with whatever "rebelling" i'm doing. sif i'm rebelling, what i'm doing is what you'd face with whichever uni student you pull out of uni and live for a week with. try it, maybe it'll expand your horizons a little. sif i don't respect you, if i truly don't wanna respect you, i'd be doing far worse things. stop being so narrow minded. i know i have the same temperament as you so it's gonna be hard to bend to another.
i need someone to bitch to. can't toss everything onto him, he doesn't understand sometimes. ning! where are you when i need to call you. dammit, can't do an international call anyway. T.T
i'm already giving too much away.
oh and P.S.: i love maxxie and sid. ^^ check them out!
//Monday, May 19, 2008 7:14 pm
have you ever found some song playing in your head as you view some artworks? i have. and here are some which i've found...
see if you can guess the songs i quote and where (some of) these artworks are currently.
The Sacrifice by Rayner Hoff. Photo credits Paul Murphy.
a young warrior is carried upon his shield and sword by three female figures, depicting the three important women in his life, his mother, his wife and his sister. in one of the woman's arms, a child is cradled, signifying the sacrifice this man has made for future generations.
"...you're never coming home, never coming home..."
Art, Life and The Other Thing by Brett Whiteley. Photo Credits to AGNSW.
a self portrait (of sorts) of Brett Whiteley. triptych, mixed media; photography, hair, hypodermic syringe, glass eye, pen and ink on cardboard, cigarette butts... pretty much is a biography in painting of brett whiteley's violatile lifestyle. brett whiteley battled an addiction to heroin and was a chain smoker. he eventually died on an OD of heroin.
"...cause i want it now, i want it now. give me your heart and your soul..."
anyway, on another note, the weekend that just passed, was pretty interesting. saturday night had dinner with my japanese classmates and friends, sunday night aaron and jack's sausage-fest dinner.
saturday night, we brought tomo and nami out for dinner and purikuras. =) photos up on my facebook!
sunday night, met up with the guys for dinner and guess what! i turned out to be the only girl there. -_-" nice one.
random qn: why the emphasis on height? i believe if someone has the attitude and charisma to carry themselves, height is not an issue. i personally don't mind any height, maybe it's cos i'm short myself, but that has never stopped me doing anything i liked, neither have i found any offense in people paying me out on my height. cos i'm all like, sure i'm short, so what?
random observation too: why can't australian kids learn to respect the flag? i seriously can't stand it when they throw the flag around their shoulders and 'drink to their country'. it's just a disgrace. why do they condone such acts?
//Sunday, May 11, 2008 12:30 am
happy mother's day!
ahah! well, vicki and i decided (last minute; after both of us woke up at 12) to make a cake for mommy dearest and granny, for Mom's day. happy to say that it turned out pretty good, albeit a few beginner's mistakes (i managed to make the chocolate plaque! but i screwed up on my wording, anticipated too little space and had to compromise and put 'Mom' instead of 'Mother's' XD) but i'm pretty satisfied with the results, as was vicki. ^^V
hungry yet? XD
*EDIT* tammy also helped out in cleaning up with vicki while i went off to work. ^^ so THANK YOU!!
//Sunday, May 04, 2008 10:49 pm
got this from Joanna's blog. think it's worth a bit of a read
1. A man won’t let go if he really loves you.
Do not hold on to someone who has let go of you.
He does not love you and does not value having you.
Believe me, he will not let go if he really loves you.
2. Do not look for reasons why he ended the relationship.
There is only one reason why he ended your relationship.
He just does not love you.
Do not waste your time thinking of reasons
or what you should have done.
Move on and be open to a man who will truly love you.
3. Do not get hung up on your past.
Do not nag or distrust your current boyfriend just because your ex hurt you.
Do not treat him or the relationship in the same way.
Do not compare.
He will not react the same way as your ex.
Do not be worried that your simple mistakes will cause him to look for another girl.
What happened with your ex was not your fault.
It was not because you didn’t guard him enough or you didn’t make him happy enough.
4. Do not look into images.
How many times have you met a girl who didn’t have the best image in school or at the office, but you get to know the girl and found out she was actually extremely nice?
Do not rely on images. Oftentimes, it is far from reality.
Do not fear men just because
your “supposedly” perfect ex-boyfriend mistreated you.
5. Always have your own set of rules.
Set your limits on how far you’d go for a guy.
It’s perfectly ok to give and do everything as long as it’s worth it..
And it’s worth it if the guy is treating you right.
6. Do not be scared to lose him.
Don’t be scared that he’ll break up with you.
Once you are afraid of losing him, you easily can be taken advantage.
Be strong and if something is unacceptable, do not accept it and speak up.
7. Avoid calling your guy.
It’s a guy thing.
The relationship will definitely be better if it’s the guy who’s calling, not the girl.
He will get tired of you if you keep on calling.
He will lose interest and challenge.
More so, he will get annoyed.
But it’s a girl thing also that your fingers get too itchy until you dial his number.
But avoid as much as possible.
Call only if really needed (like checking if your suspicions are reasonable).
8. There is a guy who will value you. somewhere out there *sigh*
There is a guy out there who can make you feel valued, appreciated, and loved.
And I mean, not just during your first few weeks together.
So don’t lose hope.
Don’t become a lesbian if you are not truly attracted to women.
There is a man out there who can love you like a girl can.
Also, do not believe him when he says it’s just the way he really is.
He’s not the sweet or expressive-type.
Remember during your first few weeks together?
Where has that sweet guy gone?
He simply is not that into you anymore.
9. Always be the only one, no matter what.
Do not ever fall for a guy who has another girl, be it his wife, girlfriend, or any girl that he says he just can’t get rid of for whatever reason.
If you truly believe that he loves you and for some reason, he can’t leave or let go of another girl, then you are no different from any ordinary mistress.
10. He must respect you.
No matter how long the relationship has been, he should always show respect towards you.
11. If he fooled you, end it.
Philandering once is enough.
You can never trust nor respect the person again.
12. Never start a relationship the wrong way.
Do not steal another girl’s man, for whatever reason.
Nor should you enter a relationship for the wrong reasons(loneliness, on the rebound, getting back at your ex, man-dependency, etc.) it's not bound to last.
You will only end up wasting more years of your life.
13. Do not force yourself into a relationship.
Do not get into a relationship just because your friends are getting impatient
with your dating escapades and the one hasn’t come yet..
Do not choose who to say yes to based on superficial things like money, looks, cars, etc..
If you are even thinking of these things, you have not fallen in love yet.
14. Do not hesistate and let him have his way.
If you are not happy anymore with your relationship, break up instantly.
He will not stay with you forever no matter how upright he might seem to be.
Eventually, he will also want love and happiness in his life.
15. A relationship has to have love.
Love is the only thing that will push you to give your efforts into making the relationship work.
And believe me, keeping a relationship requires genuine efforts of both parties.
16. Don’t be afraid to be single.
It’s fun to be single, try it.
You can go out whenever and wherever you want.
You are free.
You can date whomever you want and you get to go out for free!
Do not get a boyfriend just for the sake of having one.
Do not settle for second best.
17. Be a good girl. Be a good girl to attract a good guy.
Enter the relationship with sincere intentions.
Take the guy and the relationship seriously with the plan of spending the rest of your life with that person (of course, this is after you had your bit of fun in your younger years).
If you compare your flings from your real relationships, you will know that the latter makes you happier and more fulfilled.
18. Love without limits.
Whether you loved and gave everything or loved but held out for some things, if the relationship ends, you still get hurt.
But if you gave your everything, you were happy and you could say that it was worth it.
If you didn’t give your all, you get hurt for nothing.
19. You will get over him.
Love is over-stated.
Love eventually ends and you are free to love another.
20. Be the one.
Act like you are the one.
Don’t be a nagger.
Don’t hinder him.
Don’t give in to him too easily.
Make him treat you as important.
Don’t be easy.
Don’t be like every other girl he had in his life.
// 7:36 pm
this is the reason why i love japanese men. XDDD
it's amazing how similar they look to each other. it's scary...
//Friday, May 02, 2008 11:31 pm
i had my microbio test today. i would say i could have done better and that it was stupid mistakes that cost me. ahah loved the elevator conversation with my fellow microbio classmates as we were heading from mathews to biosci building after the test.
"so i put it as the Ninja form and the E-somethingsomething form for that chlamydia question"- peter in reference to the question 'describe the two forms of chlamydia and describe its lifecycle' something similar to that. and i can't believe i mixed up staphylococcus aureus and chlamydia, in regards to its gram stains. GAH. so basic. and i stuffed it up. then there were the yeast questions that i seriously couldn't be bothered with. -.- tralalaa over and done with...
so after that we had a lab. and my cellulose degraders grew!
my two plates; bacteria on cellulose medium agar and basal agar.
and my bacteria under a gram stain!
it's a gram positive rod. and we started doing cabbage preservation. long story. anywayy, went to the city to meet up with eunice to have lunch. i totally forgot that place. but it's that cafe in TGV which does singaporean food. i had a bowl of assam laksa and eunice had chicken rice. assam laksa was alright, way too much on the sardines though...
we later walked around the city, went to see xixi at her workplace ^^ and check out various cafes. went to cupcakes on pitt where we got these cute little things.
and these were on display. forgot what they were called.
pity though that it's only eye candy, the muffins itself wasn't that tasty, and the cream was just too much.
walking along george st i happened to see nami and tomoaki! was contemplating on whether to call them but in the end i sent them a message while sampling some tiramisu at 85°C cake store. met up with them at chinatown and we took a lazy walk around paddy's. brought them up to capitol for a bit; tomoaki remarked,
"is this like japan city?"in reference to capitol's second level of purikura machines and those toy machine grabbers. XD walked down georgest toward townhall and just chatted along the way. we said our goodbyes at TGV since i wanted to get home for dinner.
funny the train today wasn't packed at all! weird... and i caught it at peak hour too, like 4-5pmish