at myself.

a year after getting it and i'm still not able to do it even with a more experienced one at my side, what more doing it by myself in the future.

i'm disappointed in myself.





on another note, why do i always argue with my dad? is it a crime to ask him to do things by himself and not rely on me to do things for him just because he's half of my genetic makeup? doesn't he have a pair of working limbs? i totally know you worked your life half-away to get me here, but i would rather show my gratitude in another way. eventhough i know i shouldn't be so petty and do it. ARGH i hate the contradiction in myself




it's a full moon tonight.