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gong gong's in hospital. mommy's on her way back to singapore. ICU. LIFE SUPPORT. journey mercies. hand clenching. heart-wrenching motion to the chest. "this is happening too soon... this is what i dreaded after porpor's passing this year". yearning to close the distance between each other. (NO) ENTRY on heaven's gates.
empty promises. "matte ne". i'm so sorry. crying. listlessness. regret. let-down. "he always never shows... why do you do this to yourself?". averting your stare. finding excuses (for my faltering heart). lies. lies. lies. wish the beanie i wore today + my messy fringe could have covered my eyes (so you wouldn't see my eyes giving me away).
dear Lord. sustain gong gong. even for a bit. onegai.
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