just to remember...

Granny's simple Butter Cake Recipe
INGREDIENTS:
250 g butter (1 block)
240 g self-raising flour
240 g sugar
5 eggs
1 teaspoon vanilla essence
a little bit of milk (approx 1-2 tablespoons)

METHOD:
1. grease and flour down the insides of an 8in square cake tin or 2 small loaf tins. preheat oven to 180-200 depending on your oven.
2. melt butter down in microwave or over stove. put aside to chill.
3. using an electric beater, whisk up eggs and sugar and vanilla essence till sugar is dissolved and mixture takes on a creamy texture.
4. sift in self-raising flour and fold into mixture.
5. add in melted butter and fold into mixture.
6. add in milk and fold.
7. pour into tin immediately. take note as this cake is a heavy cake and if you let the mixture stand for too long the butter will sink to the bottom of the cake.
8. bake for 15-25 minutes till the top is brown. or whenever you wanna (tammy likes the top slightly uncooked.)

gotta keep them away from the sticky fingers (daddy), so that there's actually something for tmr's yf tea.

is it wrong to say i don't like boganess in my (future) man? sure i don't mind befriending the guy and all that but seriously, i doubt i'll be able to stand a whole lifetime worth of aussie-ness. no offence to aussies, but i am firstly a singaporean and an asian, so it'll take a bit to get it out of me. i don't mind integrating into the society and all, but it'll take a while man...

and also, is it wrong to wanna date for long-term, rather than pour yourself into something that wil just ultimately end up in tears. i think i would rather protect myself before i get into anything. if that's anything to say from past memories. aish.

you can obviously see that someone let me down.

the tale of my sony vaio
so i was just talking to jofid the other day in regards to getting a laptop for my uni work, for the convienience of it. she had just gotten a new sony vaio from her dad since her mac broke down on her recently. she managed to get a pink snake skin sony vaio, praise the Lord for His providence. :)) this was before the 16th of oct.

16th of oct, gonggong passed on. mommy and daddy rushed back to singapore.

nothing was heard of my laptop business till daddy and mommy called back from singapore to ask how we were and whether we wanted stuff from sg. i jokingly said i wanted a laptop. "you think we got a lot of money issit??!!!" was daddy's reply. so yea, joke's out of the window.

wednesday the 22nd. i had just spent the previous night stressing myself out on the speech i needed to present on wednesday morning. woke up so unprepared and late, rushed out of the house and forgot my mobile so i had to use gran's that switches off by itself during calls, and got gogo doris to drive me to uni.

so i was late to class and i presented the speech immediately after arriving, all frazzled and tensed. but thank God He managed to calm me down to sufficiently complete the speech without much of a hitch save for that concluding para which i was whizzing past at such a speed, i'm pretty sure i ommitted like 50% of the content. after the speech, i didn't wanna even go for my last genetics prac. just spent the afternoon snoozing in the student lounge.

so i jigged class and went to jb hifi with zee and jase. didn't have any particular need for music or games so i wandered around the store and loitered around the laptops + external harddrives. saw a tiny asus laptop going for 598 and i was thinking, that's quite a steal so i called my dad up and asked him whether i could get this laptop + one external hard drive since it was only that cheap. before i could hear his answer the phone switched off by itself. i rushed to switch the phone back on and called him from my previous dialled numbers.

male voice: "hello?"
me: "eh, daddy, can i please get a laptop? it's just $598 at jb hifi, can anot?" spoken like a true blue singaporean
male voice: "...huh?"
-phone cuts off-

cursing at the phone, i was just contemplating on that convo i had earlier.. wait a minute, i realised that that wasn't daddy, but instead was tim. i had called tim and 1) called him in a singaporean accent, which he prob had no idea what was going on and 2) WORSE OF ALL, called him daddy. *hides in a corner and waits to die*

in any case i texted him back apologising for the mishap and he replied that i had a surprise waiting for me at home. i thought nothing much abt it.

then i got home, and there wasn't any surprise. so i texted tim and called him usotsuki. -_-"

daddy came home and decided to start lecturing me on getting a laptop and all the responsibility it entailed. with the conversation looking to have him get me a laptop, only if i sourced around and got the one that best suited my needs and that i promised to pay half of the cost, he got up and went around to some boxes we have lying in the corner of our living room and pulled out a black case. i was still deep in thought about the laptop business thing when he hauled the case toward me on the sofa. it was the sony vaio. :D

he had decided to get me a laptop whilst he was back in sg. ended up choosing a beige/gold model. he was thinking that tim had ruined the secret by leaking out that i had a surprise waiting for me at home. ahah!

truly it is God's providence. :))) can't you just see it?

oh and more photos of the three of us without the parentals will be up shortly. :))

so mommy and daddy aren't in town, i cooked dinner!

since we had leftover avocados from brekkie and lunch, i decided to try my hand at making that salmon sashimi and avocado salad thingo. one thing became another and in the end, it became salmon and avocado sushi with avocado+mayo+wasabi dressing. also decided to make tamagoyaki to put on top of the extra sushi rice.



so my tamago turned out a little funny looking (esp since i found out mommy threw out the tamago-making pan), but all round ok! :DDD

randoms from wednesday afternoon:
jason + my beanie.





i think he's obsessed with it...

french braiding. kudos to tammy.

gong gong's in hospital. mommy's on her way back to singapore. ICU. LIFE SUPPORT. journey mercies. hand clenching. heart-wrenching motion to the chest. "this is happening too soon... this is what i dreaded after porpor's passing this year". yearning to close the distance between each other. (NO) ENTRY on heaven's gates.

empty promises. "matte ne". i'm so sorry. crying. listlessness. regret. let-down. "he always never shows... why do you do this to yourself?". averting your stare. finding excuses (for my faltering heart). lies. lies. lies. wish the beanie i wore today + my messy fringe could have covered my eyes (so you wouldn't see my eyes giving me away).

dear Lord. sustain gong gong. even for a bit. onegai.

Leeched off jordan's blog. LETSA GO~~

Lionheart by SMAP

RULES:

1. Put Your iTunes, Windows Media Player, ETC on Shuffle.

2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.

3. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS.

4. Put any comments in brackets after the song name.

5. Put this on your journal.



1. If someone says, “Is this okay?” You say?
1 Bun 1 Cho (1 minute 1 second) by Epik High (hmm, i must be pretty busy... either that or i'm thinking of past relationships in my life. hmm, very pensieve in any case. P.S.: fave song at the moment! :D)

2.How would you describe yourself?
Mi Duh Yo (trust) by DBSK (wow... you serious? ahaha, even i don't trust myself on that claim XD)

3.What do you like in a girl/guy?
So Hot by Wondergirls (LOLZORZ. how superficial XD)

4.How do you feel today?
My Girl by Big Bang (...err... well i do feel like the only girl sometimes hanging around zenan and the guys... i think?)

5.What is your life’s purpose?
So Close by Jon McLaughlin (to find someone that's meant to be close to me? what do you think?)

6.What is your motto?
Ren'ai Shashin ~Haru~ (a picture of love) by Ai Otsuka (i must be some real lovelorn person with all these love songs ruling my life and motto. ahah! i do love the feeling of being loved though. :))) ♥)

7. What do your friends think of you?
Quando Quando Quando by Michael Buble feat. Nelly Furtardo (lol, 'when when when'... i love procrastinating! XD)

8. What do you think of your parents?
The SHINee World (doo-bop) by SHINee (WHUT..? either way it doesn't make any song cos like parents and SHINee don't go. :|)

9.What do you think about very often?
Buttons by Pussycat Dolls (...yea right. think of dirty dancing pcd style all day long... f'sure XP)

10.What is 2 + 2?
Ki.Se.Ki (miracle) by Takizawa Hideaki (another i don't get this... it'll get a miracle to find out what's 2 + 2??? :|)

11.What do you think of your best friend?
Saranggwa Jeonjaeng (love & war) by Davichi (lol~ is this saying we'd become best friends only after finding out the guy we've been fighting over is a dirtbag? :DD)

12.What do you think of the person you like?
It's Gonna Rain by Bonnie Pink (mmm... pretty true actually, for the moment, if you read the lyrics.)

13.What is your life story?
Closer by Ne-Yo (hmm, correlates to Qn.5 What's my life's purpose)

14.What do you want to be when you grow up?
Love In The Ice by DBSK (pretty high calling, to find someone out there and to bring them back to the loving side of life. that totally didn't make sense, just go find the translation and you'd understand)

15.What do you think of when you see the person you like?
Last Farewell by Big Bang (wahhh~ like no chance leh. so depressing. but yea, my dear enigma's exactly that. so true)

16.What will you dance to at your wedding?
Perhaps Love by HowL & J (OMG YES. SO SWEET~! ♥♥♥)

17.What will they play at your funeral?
We Taking Over by Hecktik Soprano featuring Planet Asia, Diego Redd, Fashawn, Shake The Mayor (...i'll turn over in my coffin. jason would be happy though XD)

18.What is your hobby/interest?
누난 너무 예뻐 (Replay) English Version by Lisa (aozorafantasii) (being a noona? ahaha, it's my calling man, XD)

19.What is your biggest fear?
Ai No Shirushi by Puffy (being alone?? i don't get this loopy song lol...)

20.What is your biggest secret?
Like This by MiMS (that i'm like niggahz deep down. PUAHAHA~ who am i kidding....)

21.What do you think of your friends?
Timeless by Xiah Junsu and Jang Ri In (forever? i can only hope that it does last...)

22.What will you post this as?
Lionheart by SMAP (ooh nice~ ^^)

i recommend watching this in high quality. just click on the youtube twice and it'll open in a new tab/window, click view in high quality.



....watching dvds, just you and me...
the sound of your breath as you leaned against my shoulder...

ahh nostalgia.

now to go find the piano score for that.

watched (Battle of) Red Cliffs, 赤壁 (之戰) this afternoon. never felt so proud to be a chinese. XD makes me wanna go read up on Romance of the Three Kingdoms and start playing Dynasty Warriors again.

been completing my japanese labwork. not too bad now, i just need to finish up half of the other chap 9 and the rest of chap 10 now.

やべ, i didn't start on my molecular cell bio work. しまた...

zettai iyada.

i simply cannot stand how my mind is so easily swayed. sometimes too i wished i wasn't so caught up in this church. this family. this life. i want to be someone else. wished that things would go my way. wished that i could be more affluent. wished that i could be of the world.

but that's the battle of being a christian. ahh my head's hurting. and i gotta go to work.

living one uni day without a phone. not wise, but it had to be done when my phone died on me this morning just as i was coming into uni. seems that vicki killed the switch on my phone charger last night and i blindly put in the jack without realising it wasn't charging.

SO LONELY~ i need to store numbers on my notebook just for emergencies now... i had to take a lonely train ride home. TT. and zenan and jason had lunch in hurst, WITHOUT ME. TT____TT

aish. did manage to bump into aivy, hilda and will whilst on the lookout for the two abovementioned boys that went to hurst WITHOUT ME. poo. :P ahhaha~ and jayy too, as he was with the optom ppl doing their world sight day stuff. ate lunch there in the end.

death wobbles today. as jason puts it. ahahah~ but i need to wear them out once in a while, to put my money to use.

enigma, when would you tell me what's going on between us?

my body's been really weird as of recent. my appetite's been dwindling. i don't feel the need to eat sometimes. just want a whole lot of fluids. that's all. and like when i do force myself to eat sometimes, there's no taste; food becomes really tasteless. should i be worried?

uni as usual, great day appreciating the library lawn again. spent half the time trying to put a name to some old de la guy we suddenly remembered. just for the heck of it, we started calling all the de la alumnni, trying to see if anyone remembered this guy's name. everyone could visualise his face, and remembered what he did in high sch, like ride a bike to sch, took chem, va, physics and ipt, was real pale, dark haired and moved up from melb only in year 11. stupid guy got the whole bunch of us wondering what his name is. whilst this short old guy with an accordian played in front of the library lawn, promoting oktoberfest.

finally at around 6.50-ish pm, jacqui got the name. "Joshua Bosen". XD

anyway, i managed to finish off my genetic's lab real early today. 3PM! caught up with zenan and the guys at the roundhouse just chilling. whiled away the hours till 4.40pm just chatting and chilling. it's pretty good just sitting there listening to guytalk. pretty insightful. XD

YAY! emo no more. i can actually graduate in 2011 after semester 1. providing
1) i actually pass all my subjects. and
2) totally stuff myself with 4 subjects per semester from now on. now i just gotta start calling faculties and asking why their damn handbook isn't updated with semester times so i can start planning and all that shizz.

holidays has been breezy so far, i really seriously need to start cleaning up my desk and compiling real notes for my subjects so i don't fall behind. yet again. someone kick me into doing notes. please.

got my gel nails off today. omg. like PAIN. and i think they totally wrecked my nails. TT

bought a pair of boots and a jacket from all those sales happening on winter stock. wish i could go overseas to some winter place where i could actually use my winter sale finds. i wanna travel!! TT no money, plus i'm in debt to my dad, he's demanding his money back now. oh sigh... what i would give to have a windfall right abt now.

OMO, IS THIS LIKE A SIGN OR WHAT. i just received an email from jetstar; SALE ON FLIGHTS TO TOKYO/OSAKA. D: WHERE'S MY WINDFALL WHEN I WANT IT!!!

alrightey, nightey night, it's reall late now. and i need sleep.