Affectatious. maybe it's just me, but i feel as if the next generation of Bethanians are such.

disclaimer: this blog entry is not gonna be like nice and all. hope you as the reader understand that this is my blog and i would love to hear from you. constructive comments are greatly appreciated.

this blog entry was inspired by firstly my dearest granny and secondly sherman tan's blog on Bethany's anniversary. i was really intrigued by what my granny told me. i was just speaking to her the other day about how everyone looked so pretty and beautiful in the anniversary night pics. she slammed me with this comment; "that's the thing lor, your church Bethany when you go to church must, yao mian zhi must keep up appearances. that's why i don't like going to your church. must dress up so nice one when go to church. i feel out of place when i go." yes, i know we must give of the best to the Master. but what if it becomes so extreme that you dress not to please God but Man.

i know they may look all nice and all on the outside but even i when i'm not there at Bethany physically, i just have to look at those pictures of anniversary to know that many of them are so superficial. maybe i'm speculating too much, maybe i'm reading too much into it. but it's such a pity though. I love Bethany and all, but i don't want it to become like, a stranger to me. it's like a fictional story plot i read before;

a father dotes on his children, loves them to bits. to ensure that his children get a secure and proper future, he works his ass off trying to get money for them. because of this, the father drifts away from his children. the children become so influenced by money and things of this earth. father becomes a stranger in their eyes.

i know Bethany has been going on and on about oneness in the church; but like what sherman tan says in his blog, oneness within ppl of your own kind. are you all really that selective?

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What You Really Think Of Your Friends

Cheryln is your soulmate.

You truly love Andrea.

You consider Fee your true friend.

You know that Yi Ning is always thinking of you.

You'll remember Deb for the rest of your life.

You secretly think Joshie is creative, charming, and a bit too dramatic at times.

You secretly think that Sam is colorful, impulsive, and a total risk taker.

You secretly think that Bobby is loyal and trustworthy to you. And that Bobby changes lovers faster than underwear.

You secretly think Lee is shy and nonconfrontational. And that Lee has a hidden internet romance.

ahaha! this is funny. so not real on a few certain ppl. =P

hello! soz everyone, was MIA for a few days there. a lot happened in between. =) ahah. grooving to DARE by Gorillaz now. my sisters are getting real tired of this song. ahah!

DARE

by Gorillaz

Album : Demon Days (2005)

It's coming up
It's coming up
It's coming up
It's coming up
It's DARE

It's DARE

You got to press it on you
You just, think it, that's what you do it
That's what you do, baby
Hold it down, DARE

Jump with the moon and move it
Jump back and forth
It feels like you would let yourself work it out

Never did no harm
Never did no harm

It's DARE
It's coming up
It's coming up
It's coming up
It's coming up
It's coming up
It's DARE

It's DARE

You got to press it on you
You just, think it, that's what you do
That's what you do, baby
Hold it down, DARE

Jump with the moon and move it
Jump back and forth
It feels like you would let yourself work it out

Never did no harm
Never did no harm

It's DARE
It's coming up
It's coming up
It's coming up
It's coming up
It's coming up
It's DARE

Never did no harm
Never did no harm

It's DARE
It's coming up
It's coming up
It's coming up
It's coming up
It's coming up
It's DARE

You got to press it on you
You just, think it, that's what you do
That's what you do, baby
Hold it down, DARE

Jump with the moon and move it
Jump back and forth
It feels like you would let yourself work it out

You got to press it on you
You just, think it, that's what you do
That's what you do, baby
Hold it down, DARE

Jump with the moon and move it
Jump back and forth
It feels like you would let yourself work it out

it's repetitive i know but heh, it's all well with me. mhmm. yesterday, can be summed up in this one song i'm also in love with. so described me.

You Had A Bad Day by Daniel Powter. [lovely song with Samara in the MV]

Where is the moment we needed the most
You kick up the leaves and the magic is lost
They tell me your blue skies fade to grey
They tell me your passion's gone away
And I don't need no carryin' on

You stand in the line just to hit a new low
You're faking a smile with the coffee to go
You tell me your life's been way off line
You're falling to pieces everytime
And I don't need no carryin' on

Cause you had a bad day
You're taking one down
You sing a sad song just to turn it around
You say you don't know
You tell me don't lie
You work at a smile and you go for a ride
You had a bad day
The camera don't lie
You're coming back down and you really don't mind
You had a bad day
You had a bad day

Well you need a blue sky holiday
The point is they laugh at what you say
And I don't need no carryin' on

You had a bad day
You're taking one down
You sing a sad song just to turn it around
You say you don't know
You tell me don't lie
You work at a smile and you go for a ride
You had a bad day
The camera don't lie
You're coming back down and you really don't mind
You had a bad day

(Oh.. Holiday..)

Sometimes the system goes on the blink
And the whole thing turns out wrong
You might not make it back and you know
That you could be well oh that strong
And I'm not wrong

So where is the passion when you need it the most
Oh you and I
You kick up the leaves and the magic is lost

Cause you had a bad day
You're taking one down
You sing a sad song just to turn it around
You say you don't know
You tell me don't lie
You work at a smile and you go for a ride
You had a bad day
You've seen what you like
And how does it feel for one more time
You had a bad day
You had a bad day

Had a bad day
Had a bad day
Had a bad day
Had a bad day
Had a bad day

last in class for maths and just basically crying my whole day at home. thank god i had an early leave that day. left me some time to mope in my room. but that aside. i'm alright now. =)

thanks to fiona and shirley for worrying abt my mental state. ahah, =) i'm alright now =).

"Come Get Some" by Rooster

Baby it Dont Matter,
Anyone Can See The Signs,
I caught you looking over, with just a little bit of a smile,
You tell him that you love him, while im running through your mind.
Cos i know, that you know,
your cover will blow it's only a matter of time.

It's Not My Style, to try an cheat and lie,
why do you sanctify something that already died.
I've got something that'll bring you alive.

I aint gonna shout it from the rooftops honey,
Tell me i'm the only one,
Kick em to the curb and baby dont stop running,
Tell me how you gonna come get some.

Did you ever ask yourself the question'
Where the hell did i go wrong?'
Cos you know when it's true,
I'll be waiting for you,
So tell me how you gonna come, come
Come Get Some.

All those words your wasting,
Trying to tell yourself you need more time,
But whats the point in faking,
When you know your'll never make it right.
You say your head is blurry but i cant get you out of mine.
I don't mean to cause pressure,
but i just cant let ya,
go on while your living this lie.

It's not my style,
To let this pass me by,
Why do you sanctify something thats already died.

I've got something that'll bring you alive,
I aint gonna shout it from the rooftops honey,
Tell me i'm the only one,
Kick em to the curb and baby dont stop running,
Tell me how you gonna come get some.

Did you ever ask yourself the question'
Where the hell did i go wrong?'
Cos you know when it's true,
I'll be waiting for you,
So tell me how you gonna come, come
Come Get Some.

Pushed out and waiting,
Blackedout and fading,
Flaked out and shaking,
Just breaking for you [x2]
Freaked out and pacing,
I just cant go on like this forever.

I aint gonna shout it from the rooftops honey,
Tell me i'm the only one,
Kick em to the curb and baby dont stop running,
Tell me how you gonna come get some.

Did you ever ask yourself the question'
Where the hell did i go wrong?'
Cos you know when it's true,
I'll be waiting for you,
So tell me how you gonna come, come
Come Get Some.

i want to dig a hole in the ground and bury myself. i feel like the shittiest person alive right now.









"6 Be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer and supplication, with thanksgiving, let your requests be made known to God; 7 and the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus."
-Philippians 4:6,7

i just wish i could have said that then. and maybe if i had explained it, maybe nothing would had happened. but i know the Lord has a much superior plan above. Let His Will be done in me, through me. To God Be The Glory..

hmm, thinking of schoolies. wonder where to go. should i go with elisa for the schoolies cruise or for a trip to japan[not sure yet] with lee and fee. wonder. schoolies sounds so fun. but i dunno. it's next year and schoolies is already booking. scary paranoid ppl.

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First, write down the names of twenty people you
know. Then, read and answer the questions. You
can't look at the questions until you write down
the twenty names you're going to use.

01. Lee
02. Calvin
03. Fee
04. Sam Zaky
05. Maryanne
06. Danni
07. Daniel Benrose
08. Andrea
09. Deb
10. Ame
11. Cheryln
12. Bobby
13. Oz
14. Karina
15. Jacqui
16. Allison
17. Sam Chu
18. Joshie
19. Matt Lam
20. Ben Ling


Is #09 a boy or a girl?
Girl

Would #01 and #02 make a cute couple?
ahaha, nah. they pay out each other too much sometimes. and calv's gay.

How about #18 and #04?
WAHAHA!! it'll be amazing to see that. two very much masculine guys.

What grade is #17 in?
JC2 ACJC

When was the last time you talked to #12?
hmm, yest i think.

What is #06's favorite band?
simple plan now i think.

Does #01 have any siblings?
yeah one younger brother

Would you ever date #03?
ahaha, nah, she's my godsis =)

Would you ever date #07?
haha!

Is #16 single?
single

What's #15's last name?
palaje

What's #10's middle name?
no middle name. tsui ting is chinese name

What's #05's favorite thing to do?
being friendly. and paying ben out. haha!

Is #13 hot?
ahah! hmm, i'll say yes [i might scab a free ride off him]


Would #14 and #19 make a good couple?
ahaha! karina's taller than matt! =P nah i don't think so.

What school does #20 go to?
oops. i dunno. the school that he and amanda go to?

Tell me a random fact about #11.
she can appear real quiet and demure. but once she starts talking about something she likes, she NEVER stops and amazing talks realreal animatedly.

And #03.
she likes rain now. that korean singer/actor

Have you ever had a crush on #15?
wahah! no.

Where does #09 live?
151G[or is it H] Kings Road Farrer Court. haha. used to frequent that place.

What's #04's favorite color?
i'll chance a guess at black?

Would you make out with #14?
nooo way.

Are #05 & #06 best friends?
nope. school mates.

Does #07 like #20?
no. but it'll be amazing if they do. ahah!

Does #08 like #19?
err... i don't think so. one's in sg the other in syd. hmm, but i think they might be friends if they did know each other.

How did you meet #02?
he became famous for being the first person in our year 11 batch to have detention for smoking outside the hall. ahha! and he's been to sg for a while.

How did you meet #18?
grew up in bethany ipc together. =) got closer when we were teens.

Does #10 have any pets?
nope. pet cello maybe.

Is #12 older than you?
nope, more like i'm older.

Is # 17 the sexiest person alive, or what?
ahaha! it used to be. till i got to know him more. too much of an ego maniac before so yeah, that kinda killed it. =P ahah!

to all that i haven't mentioned: soz! i couldn't fit everyone in my list! this list is whoever came to my mind at that point in time alright? =)