talking to yeow chee at the moment and i've just realised how long we've haven't talked! been yonks. =P

anyhoos, went to DFO [direct factory outlets] today. and i so wanna cry. where's money when you need it. all their clothes there were like, affordable, considering that they were once like famous up-priced brands. and what a time to go when i'm like, broke. -cries- and i was so scared today. god. something happened to me today that really taught me to look at sizes before trying next time. i saw this real pretty dress today and like i just took it off the rack and skipped to the change room to see if i looked nice in it. WRONG MOVE. god. i squeezed myself into the dress and like looked at myself. then i went out to ask tam. she said no, i said no, too tight. went back to take it out. this is when i started getting scared cos, i couldn't get it out! god did i freak. i called tam into the change room to see if she could help me out. by this time i was on the verge of one of my cry-laugh sessions; uncontrollable laughing and crying at the same time, and i was hyperventilating. i was so freaking scared. tam could only laugh. i was soo mad at her but i didn't have enough time to actually scream at her and i nearly wanted the salesgirl to help cut me out of the dress. but thankfully, i managed to get it off with tam's help. and guess what. it was a size 6. i'm like a size 10. I'M SUCH AN F-ING BLONDE/LOSER/IDIOT. bah.

must bring eunice to DFO when she's in sydney.

just finished uploading pics from my cam and watching together [he ni zai yi qi]. real good show though it's crammed full of the soppy factor. it's real good though. must say that the violinists they found for the main character and the others are like hell good. gawd, like i think even sam would be like -'whoa'. aha. =P not that i'm playing down the fact that sam's a virtuoso on the violin. the movie talks bout the relationship between this father and this son. how they wanna go into the city to help pursue the son's dream of becoming a famous violinist. just go watch it. don't wanna spoil the story.

i can't wait for monday! eunice is coming to SYDNEY! yay! =D have a safe journey here and bring me loads of stuff. =P maha. i'm kidding. bringing yourself here is good enough. =P

talking bout being happy and jubilant upon arrival, i must really say that i am seriously disappointed in myself at that point in time last year when i just arrived in sg. boo. i was a sad excuse of jetlag and just plain boredom. I'M REAL SORRY TO MY CHURCHIES FOR BEING SUCH A WET BLANKET THAT DAY. i should have done something else more dramatic. other than trudging into church looking like a hag. and lugging two giant luggages. but i can never ever forget that feeling sitting in auntie su yin's car and just taking in sg atmosphere. i was like. heart-stop moment. and then just plain omigosh. was half-hearing my godma talking and half-staring out the window with such excitement that can only be attributed to a 4-year old kid going to the zoo. just plain awe. and as we drove upper paya lebar road and was at that traffic junction just up the road from church, my heart was in my throat and like, if i did let my true feelings show, i would have been hyperventilating. =)) and then we pulled into the driveway in front of the church. and i was simply in a state of shock. i didn't even say anything and got out of the car, dragged my two luggages and walked in. and as i passed by ppl during their dinner. i was sososo tempted to cry but i dunno. then everything after that was a blur. but i just remember myself being such a wet blanket. gawd. don't you just hate that feeling. of regret after doing something? yeah. all i know was that i wasn't talking much and ppl were just asking me all this questions and all i could do was nod or shake my head or give monotonous answers. -slaps self-


next time i promise to be prepared. i'd rehearse the scene before everything. pinky swear. promise.

bass player's got a SEXAY butt.

FEEL GOOD INC. I FEEL HIGH.




soz hellsing. =( you'll have to wait.

my sisters are watching gen-y cops again. i can't stand the version they're watching. DUB OVER SUCKS. god. gimme canto anytime of day. -cringes- they seriously suck with that horrible english dub over.
been scoffing pizza for the past few days for my lunches and dinner. left over from the movie sleepover. hawaiian. never get bored of it.
holidays are about to end soon. and i didn't even manage to go to the beach! bah. now i'm stuck with my uneven tan and cooped up at home. rarh. stupid winter weather. i hate winter. just gain weight all the time. horrible.






hellsing rawks like shit.

City's breaking down on a camel’s back.
They just have to go 'cos they dont hold back
So all you fill the streets it’s appealing to see
You wont get out the county, 'cos you're bad and free
You've got a new horizon
It's ephermal style.
A melancholy town where we never smile.
And all I wanna hear is the message beep.
My dreams, they've got to kiss, because I dont get sleep, no..

Windmill, Windmill for the land.
Learn forever hand in hand
Take it all in on your stride
It is sticking, falling down
Love forever love is free
Let’s turn forever you and me
Windmill, windmill for the land
Is everybody in?

Laughing gas these hazmats, fast cats,
Lining them up-a like ass cracks,
Ladies, homies, at the track
its my chocolate attack.
Shit, I'm stepping in the heart of this here
Care bear bumping in the heart of this here
watch me as I gravitate
hahahahahahaa.
Yo, we gonna go ghost town,
this motown,
with yo sound
you're in the place
you gonna bite the dust
Cant fight with us
With yo sound
you kill the INC.
so dont stop, get it, get it
until you're cheddar header.
Yo, watch the way I navigate

Windmill, Windmill for the land.
Learn forever hand in hand
Take it all in on your stride
It is sticking, falling down
Love forever love is free
Let’s turn forever you and me
Windmill, windmill for the land
Is everybody in?

Dont stop, get it, get it
we are your captains in it
steady,watch me navigate,ahahahahahhaa.
Dont stop, get it, get it
we are your captains in it
steady, watch me navigate

whoo...addicted to this song. even though i can't make head or tail of it. =P anyhoos i'm off for a while. seeing that i've blogged enough.

i seriously love that clip from that Jamie Oliver school dinner show that's being aired on channel ten.

Jamie: who knows what' this is [holds up a bunch of asparagus]
girl:[raises hand frantically and eagerly] ONIONS?
Jamie:[flabbergasted] onions? no.

maha. =P crack up everytime i see it. liew. now you know how much time i spend being a couch potato. I'M GONNA GAIN WEIGHT!!! ARGH.

tra la. i'm bored. let's see what i gotta do this week before heading back to sch.

* start and finish my eng extension speech due the 27th. damn othello and the themes!
* organise that movie sleepover with tiff and jacqui. pizza, video ezy and screams. blame jacqui; horror fan.
* organise a trip down to the city! esp with fiona. oii mui, you wanted to show me that place along george st, better do it this week!
* clean my room, but then again maybe not.
* clean up my folder. messy.

today in church. kev once again got our brain juices working. was talking abt prayer and one question that we raised during discussion was

if it's all good, fine and perfectly breezing, is it God's will? if it's not good, dires states, despair, is it not God's will?

like if you are succeeding in life and all, is it God's will that you succeed? and if you're broke, sick and just downright in the dumps, is it not God's will that you suffer? on one hand i was debating that that God never said that it was gonna be an easy ride, but He says that he will never 'allow you to be tempted beyond what you are able , but with the temptation will also make the way of escape, that you may be able to bear it.' [1 corinthians 10:13] but then again i was challenged to ask whether the good things in life was really God-given. we somehow always manage to take forgranted the things God gave us. but then again, are they realyl of God? are these gifts that were given to you glorifying Him?

that pedigree commercial on telly is sooo damn cute! waii! =D

god, sometimes i just seriously hate my dad. like, he overreacts! just because i ACCIDENTEDLY dropped the bunch of keys on the piano. he screams at me. but like, i know that it's bad and it'll leave marks on the piano but that doesn't mean that i don't mourn for it, and i digress, my mom and my sis are having an impromptu bitch fight. mooha. and tam's showing me the red mark on her ass where my mom hit her. but anyhoos, back to my dad. he just goes on and on about the scratch like he does when mummy accidentedly gets the car scratched and i simply retort back to him that that doesn't affect the way the piano plays otherwise! if like, the keys fell into the strings itself i'd cry but it dint! so just mourn for a while then get on with it! god, he sometimes just annoys me! like, he views material goods as higher, not that he means to, but like, what the hell... i don't understand my daddy anymore. so what if there's a scratch, doesn't mean that you're not gonna hear beautiful music from it anymore. so what if there's a scratch on the car, doesn't mean that it don't work no more. god, i just wish he could hear all this. but he's stubborn, unfortunately, and i am. so that's not gonna work out. too bad i inherited that from him. bleh.

and guess what, i had the best and most guilty dream today. god, i hate myself for even having that dream. bleh.

hey fi, shirls and anyone else in sydney that i know of, wanna go to the city? i'm dying to go and have fun. being cooped up at home is no fun.

"You Belong To Me"
See the pyramids along the Nile
Watch the sun rise on a tropic isle
Just remember, darling, all the while
You belong to me.

See the marketplace in old Algiers
Send me photographs and souvenirs
But just remember when a dream appears
You belong to me.

I'll be so alone without you
Maybe you'll be lonesome too

Fly the ocean in a silver plane
Watch the jungle when it's wet with rain
Just remember till you're home again
You belong to me
You belong to me

I'll be so alone without you
Maybe you'll be lonesome too

Fly the ocean in a silver plane
Watch the jungle when it's wet with rain
Just remember till you're home again
You belong to me
You belong to me
You belong to me

gosh, like that song. =P i know, i sound like a softie. but it's beautiful. lalala, reminscing. =))) oh wells, i can't bring back the past can't i .

new temp. YAYNESS. and to churchies, revamped the family blog. hope to see ppl there. =D

i really do hope this one comes out good. been crossing my fingers and hoping that it'll come through. hmm, nothing much's been happening. oh, btw, IT'S THE HOLIDAYYSS!! woo~! long expected rest. but hey, i'm gonna try and find work to get some money and experience in the working world. =) pray for me or wish me luck. cos i've gotten some ppl interested in me. in some dog grooming place and some art places. mhmm, so i'm just gonna type up my resume and a whole lotta CVs to send out after this blog. yeps. and i wanna see if i can change my temp. yeps. so here i am.