Sam

you really made my day =)

sam: and dun worry
jus: yeps =)
sam: we're trying our best to get down under at the end of the year
jus: heh =)
jus: thanks eh
sam: haha wad for? we all miss ya too
jus: =D

-huggs- :))) <3 you to atom bits!

heys all, this post is dedicated to all those who are awaiting the results tmr. cos i know how anxious and nerve-wrecked you all are. =)

1 For everything there is a season,and a time for every matter under heaven: 2 a time to be born, and a time to die; a time to plant, and a time to pluck up what is planted; 3 a time to kill, and a time to heal; a time to break down, and a time to build up; 4 a time to weep, and a time to laugh; a time to mourn, and a time to dance; 5 a time to cast away stones, and a time to gather stones together; a time to embrace, and a time to refrain from embracing; 6 a time to seek, and a time to lose; a time to keep, and a time to cast away; 7 a time to tear, and a time to sew; a time to keep silence, and a time to speak; 8 a time to love, and a time to hate; a time for war, and a time for peace.Ecclesiastes 3:1-8

this verse stood out the most when i first came to sydney. cos i was questioning His divine intervention; why did He have to come and pluck me out of singapore? why me? why did i hurt so much? yeah. i was in a pretty horrible state. but this verse really took a lot of the pain away, cos HE knows. like, He foresaw all this happening before the idea even entered my parents' minds to migrate. and He knows what is to come in my life. the only thing i can do now is to pray that i do His will and live out the life that He has planned out in front of me. and even if it seems all bleak and stuff. remember this verse.

11For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, says the LORD, thoughts of peace and not of evil, to give you a future and a hope. Jeremiah 29:11

the best part is the last part. "a future and a hope". this verse i remember very clearly, was shared to me from ben, on a last minute call on the 1 of jan 2004 around 2-3am. heh =P he wanted to say goodbye to me and encourage me on the way. and i really truly thank you for that ben =). this verse has seen me through quite a few bad patches in 2004. especially when i felt that the world was just going to crash down on my head. yeah. and i do hope that these few verses will help you to cope with the pressure as it did for me. =)and i truly thank God for such wonderful, awesome, encouraging and gorgeous babes and guys that i have as friends. cos they are like the only people who understand me. and i love them to bits! =3!

i am typing real carefully as i have just painted my nails [courtesy of tamooi! =D]

she requested to be called fried chicken. =D aha. she's been playing volleyball and getting tanned.

can someone recommend me a music hosting web where i can upload my music and play it on my blog?

currently in the school's library stoning around. couldn't access my hotmail account, damn. just have to wait till the end of the day. oh and i do hope chlo reads this: GAIA IS ACCESSIBLE. ON THE SCHOOL'S INTRANET. do hope none of the sch's internet ppl see this. anyhoos, i think i'll go see whether i can dig up one of those random quizzo things. ripped this off soph again! =P

x: what color looks best on you?
][ not sure. cos i hate the colour of my skin right now. TOO TANNED.

:x: what color looks worst on you?
][ yet again, i dunno. TOO TANNED I TELL YA

:x: do you paint your finger nails/toe
nails?
][ yeah once in a while.

:x: if so, what color do you usually
use?
][ depends

:x: do you have a tan?
][ yes, and i don't really like it cos i haven't got the clothes to flaunt it in.

:x: did you sit outside on your
ass for hours to get this tan?
][ not really. did loads of swimming as a child and been in sunny sydney for abt a year now.

:x: are you into fashion?
][ yeah kinda, but not as severe an addict as yeow chee

:x: why are u taking this survey?
][ boredom. and cos i wanna while away the time here in sch

:x: where do you normally shop for
clothes?
][ surfshops and random places having sales

:x: if you see something you absolutely
LOVE but its WAY overpriced, would you
wait for it to go on sale, or would you buy
it RIGHT there and then?
][ right there and then.

:x: do you
tend to buy clothes 3 sizes too big?
][ sometimes. but most of the time it's alright

:x: if not, do you
tend to buy clothes 3 sizes too small?
][ no. duh.

:x: do you work for your
money or do your parents pay for your
clothes?
][ used to work. now just my savings from my allowance.

:x: do you know of any stores
that you absolutely LOVE and you go in
there everytime at the shopping mall but
never got anything from there?
][ aha, yesh. SDS, General pants, Sportsgirl..

:x: do you start your own trends?
][ yes, but most of the time i'm the one who follows. too scared to do anything. [which is bad]

:x: do you follow trends?
][ sometimes. depends on how or what it is.

:x: what do you think about the "punk"
trend?
][ rad. =P

:x: what was the best decade for
fashion trends?
][ now. =)

:x: what do you think about fashion
trends?
][ they're too fickle.

:x: do you wear high heels?
][ yeah

:x: do you wear flip flops?
][ yeps

:x: do you bring extra shoes to
school in case your shoes fall apart?
][ aha, no.

:x: have you ever had people sign
your shoes?
][ nope.

:x: where do you usually
shop for shoes?
][ anywhere i guess. but usually i look for those that are NICE

:x: shoes?
][ nike and addidas. PINK ADDIDAS'S WROK.

:x: shirt?
][ i do have a few i think.

:x: skirt?
][ have them, random buys from anywhere.

:x: belt?
][ i've got this flesh imp one and a random buy from cineleisure.

:x: hat?
][ none so far. *hinthint* buy me one!

:x: purse?
][ random buy. pink strips!

:x: shorts?
][ heez. like i would dare to wear them with these thunder thighs of mine. but i do own some.

:x: pajamas?
][ my cow pajamies rock!

:x: do your clothes always match
your shoes?
][ def

:x: do your friends
tend to copy your style?
][ not that i know of.

:x: how many belts do you own?
][ two

:x: how long do you spend picking out
your outfit?
][ most of the time, it's like prob 15-20 minutes.

lalas, okie, i shall go be a good girl and research on SHINTOISM. =)

i'm beginning to accept my place.
been playing around with the VIP and i found this extremely encouraging song. never really stood out cos like, i guess i never had had such a severe problem in life as i am right now. here's the lyrics.

When Answers Aren't Enough VIP 565

You have faced the mountains of desperation,
you have climbed,
you have fought,
you have won.
But this valley that lies coldly before you,
casts a shadow you cannot overcome.

And just when you thought you had it all together,
you knew every verse to get you through.
But this time all the sorrow broke more than just your heart,
and reciting all those verses just won't do.

Chorus:

When answers aren't enough, there is Jesus,
HE is more than just an answer to your prayer.
And your heart will find a safe and peaceful refuge.
When answers aren't enough, He is there.

Instead of asking why did it happen,
think of where it can lead you form here;
And as your pain is slowly easin',
you can find a greater reason to live your life triumphant the tears.

Chorus [X2]

nearly cried when i played this song and as i was playing on the piano, it just overwhelmed me. i just prayed that He would guide me cos, no one can. so here i am Lord trusting that you'll guide me through this torrent.

listening to usher and once Yeah comes on, i just keep on thinking, yuhong and jeremy in youth con. WORSE OFF, yuhong pole dancing. O_O wahaha!

think i'm a little fried from the sun today. face is feeling all hot. need ice pack.


went out to the rock pools today. did some biology ecosystem study. boring but who cares, at least i'm out of the sku. and i think that i'm kinda like an outcast. just cos i'm asian. i don't understand. if i had different skin would others talk to me? i have a feeling that they would. and i hate it that some of the popular people have this like leering fascination kinda stare fixed on me all the time. esp the guys. argh. hate it. i wonder how models like devon aoki live up her asian flair. -sigh-

and it seems that the north syd have no problem with asians. esp since i keep on seeing so many sucessful asian students in my church up in ryde. they're all so accepted there. i'm jealous..and envious. -sigh-

i just realised how depressing my recent posts are. so please help me.

gawd, homer simpson is so typical american guy. aha, i know i'm like stereotyping americans here but hell, it's entertainning.

school still sucks big time and i feel like i'm going there just for an education. superficial, Concerned with or comprehending only what is apparent or obvious; shallow. that's my word to describe the school community.

give me STC anytime of day. and orchard road. -cries- i miss singapore. but then again, i like the whole studies thingy here, studying is so easy here. [gawd i'm becoming a nerd here. *exasperated*]
where's joshie when i need him...and you people back home better keep your promise to come! i don't think i can stand being without you all.

a random thought: why do people wanna suffer in order to live up to the world's standards? why do people starve themselves just to fit into clothes they lust after? why do people judge others just by the outward appearances? why do every other person pressurize people into losing weight? guys, stop asking your girlfriends to lose weight when they're already skinny enough [unless you want a bag of bones making love to you]. and girls, stop suffering for the sake of living up to the standards of others and the world. cos you're all beautiful the way you are. =)

i need to finish off my final fantasy game. it's dragging on too long.

I FEEL SO DAMN POOR. BAH.

currently talking to joshie! =) never fails to put a smile on my face. that guy is on the same wavelength as i am so i can kid around as much as i can [which i can't all the time since i'll probably look stupid doing all the crazy stuff i do with him in public, by myself.] but dear joshie is the bestest! and guess what, he's older than me!! =D which makes it all the more better! fwee...

i reallyreally want an mp3 player. then i don't have to lug around my cd player and cds, which really is a chore. so. and i've been busy ripping cd after cd. hehe.

what's the thing about boys. some girls that i've seen around the school are like being swayed by this strange thing guys exude. like even the popular girls are not spared. and friendships are like, break and make. as a victim of this change i can only just sit here and watch myself being carried along. -sigh- if only things were as simple as just we're classmates, not people to impress.

but anyhoos, this is just my thoughts on school. =) do tell me yours.

better than school day.

i'm going off to sleep. exhausted

omigosh.
i got this off charlotte's blog.
chij
chij alumnis are holding a reunion @ ZOUK!!! omigosh. like to all alumnis, do go for this party. and in about 2 years, i do hope that they will have stuff like that. then i can go. -grin-

scabbed this off soph. =D

DO YOU:
*Like to give hugs?:
``sometimes. when i wanna make ppl feel warm. esp during autumn and winter. -shivers-

*Like to walk in the rain?:
``unless necessary.

*Sleep with or without clothes on?:
``with. but during summer, it's rather skimpy.

*Prefer black or blue pens?:
`` whichever i fish out of my fat pencil case.

*Dress up on Halloween?:
`` only time i did was last year.

*Have a job?:
`` use to, quit cos studies is most impt. though i feel that i kinda need a pay right now.

*Sleep on your side, tummy or back?:
`` mostly side or tummy

*do you think you are attractive?:
`` no. duh. i'm fat

*Have a goldfish?:
`` yeah. won it at a funfair and it committed suicide two days later. guess it couldn't stand life anymooore.

*Have stuffed animals?:
`` yups! got one sleeping with me, doggie.

WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT
*South park :
`` a little gory but amusing still

*Piercings:
`` got them. three in total. wanna get one on my belly,tentative.

*Make-up:
`` alright i guess. only when necessary

*Drinking:
`` only when necessary. but pink is sosososo addictive

*Do you think there is a person for everyone:
`` def. =)

*Do you believe in love at first sight:
`` not really. it's more of an infatuation than love.

*Do you think you can ever love a person forever?:
`` yes. =) I will love my Lord and God forever and ever.

*Last words you said:
`` that's the freaking song we had to dance to in prom! (advert on telly)

*Last time you had an injury that made you bleed:
`` just a few hours ago. biting my cuticles till it bled.

PRESENT
What colour sock are you wearing?
`` white slazenger ankles for school

*What's under your bed:
``a broken plank

*What's the weather like:
`` air-con temperatures in the day and windy.

*What time did you wake up today:
`` 6.30am. stupid extension classes

school's been good so far. getting into a routine. =)