i'm so kidding myself, heh...tell myself to go research and i end up bloghopping as i always do, and tell me what time it is man...2.35am, siao eh? ERGH

anyway, i guess i'm just not going to do research today and end up a walking zombiefied-panda this evening, ah well, who cares. i survive anyway. heh. i need spongebob squarepants!! need the rehabilitation. sigh.

they say that in every life some rain must fall. for the pain is no respecter of the mighty or the small. but sometimes, it just seems so unfair. to see the one who has more than his share, oh it makes you wonder why. and Lord i wouldn't second guess Your mighty plan, for i know You have a purpose that's beyond the scope of man. if you look inside my heart you will find, that i have always been the trusting kind. oh but still i wonder why.

yeah we all do, and i do so much sometimes i just wish that i could slap myself for doubting so much, and that song stood out to me so much, being that i've constantly been talking to pastor mitch abt this. and he tells me that he pushes these negative thoughts out, while pastor charlie just thinks abt all the love God has shown to him and think, would God ever do such a thing as to hurt you? He's changing me, my precious Saviour. i'm not the same person that i used to be. sometimes it's slow going, but there's a knowing. that one day, Perfect [!] i will be. =) love that kiddie song, remember vicky singing that with the bss then. ahahah =)

sometimes, we just need to be a Child again, to see the world in a myriad of colours as a child's mind would, to have the simple and doubt-free faith of a child, to have the never-ending love of a child.

changed the template to htf, lovethem tho it's kinda sick,
whocares anyway, =P ahahaa, in anyway ppl, do comment and hmm, i dunno,

btw, i watch htf to destress =P

heya people, haven't been on much and i just came back from canberra. wennt for a short holiday and to help in my understanding of aus. hmm, met ade and grace last friday, had fun walking around sydney central @ night. woo.. =P.











rake these photos outta ame's gallery full of photos. =) gotta thank ame for catching bang hao smiling FOR ONCE IN MY LIFETIME, IN A PHOTO. -amazed- =D ahaha, kidding lar bang. =) and i seriously think all these photos are real good =)gotta hand it to ame man, has so many albums in her room =)

God of Grace
God of Grace,
I turn my face to You,
I cannot hide;
my nakedness,
my shame,
my guilt,
are all before Your eyes.

Strivings and all anguished dreams
in rags lie at my feet;
and only grace
provides the way
for me to stand complete.

And Your grace
clothes me
in righteousness,
and Your mercy
covers me,
in love.
Your life
adorns
and beautifies,
I stand complete
in You.

let me give u something to think abt, The Poison In The Passion Movie

heya, my fingers are getting cold, can't feel them much, gotta invest in gloves soon. mhmm, started work at pixifotos today, quite fun, got to see stuff in action and i did some phone calls, customers, blah. just hope i get a more exciting day tmr. =) mhmm, and i better get someone to eat lunch with me in miranda fair. it's eating lunch by yourself! =( thought i could get fiona to come eat lunch with me but i dint have her number. sigh. oh wells, and i'm off that magnum absolutely almond dose, heez. got sick of it now, though i would recommend it to ppl, it's really good! mm, pasted a few posters on my wall in my bedroom, insight and manga. ran outta blutack then, hehe.. gotta go buy some, got more posters going up.

went into city surf shop on tuesday and i was like looking around at all the beautiful thingys and i'm already like saying in my mind, that would suit sam and josh real nicely, and like, that's so andrea or deb or cheryln, and i went around looking and saying that i would buy that for whoever when i have the money...sigh...money constraints, hate it, and it's like, i've spent so much last chrissie, it's hard to imagine i did, i still keep all the bills so yeah. thank goodness my parents haven't seen my bills yet, keep it in my safe compartment, and i can't divlge any fact for the fear that my parents look at my bloggie, heez, i'm scared now.

my time mag just came today and i was quite stun at the front cover, it said, Why Did Jesus Have To Die? and it's really mind stirring, you can just hear those rusty cogs in ur brains starting to turn. yeah anyway, i'm deprived of time again so yeah, ciao ppl, will continue next time. =)

I'M BACK AND I SURVIVED WORK TODAY, *REJOICES*. =D it's a happy day, and i thank the Lord for the weather oh wait,it was raining cats and dogs today, -shrugs- *smiles* oh wells, i enjoyed myself in anyway, -continues humming it's a happy day- *grins*

today was a rainy day, feet as usual got frozen again, and i haven't got granny to help me warm them. -nostalgia- gran used to when i stayed over at her place and we would huddle in her living room on the sofa, she usually peeling ginko nuts/cutting vegs and me watching telly. oh wells =) she's coming in cold june, better buy some slippers for her to use when she's here. rainy as it was, my garage got flooded, to the ankle, in rainwater.

got to work this morning and fitted in rather nicely i would say. =) my co-workers were nice and friendly to me. i learnt how to operate the check in counter and shelve away books and did a bit of customer service, just hope i dint lead that poor guy to the wrong shelve for his war references =P *eeks* helped out in the children's reading time this morning. helped one of my co-workers in cutting up cotton balls for tails in paper bunnies, heh. small duty but still, i enjoyed it =) and i observed catherine, my co-worker in charged of the children's reading time, who read to the small kiddos. and she gave them chocolate eggs, i got one too! after helping out, my reward for helping to clean up after the kiddies left after finishing colouring in their bunnies and pasting on the tail. heh, =) it was fun, and i managed to shelve the books without getting bitten by anny spiders. =P there were many behind those shelves. haw. can't wait for tmr, =). mental note to self: BE ON TIME. =)

well i've only got two days of library here in miranda, and after that's pixifotos. =) the Lord has been good to me so far, thank God. -thinks- now what am i gonna wear to work tmr...

heya =) back again, this time with quite hyped-up nerves cause i'll be starting work soon. =P work experience though =) not paid work, though i hope i'll be able to find one job soon, i need the experience. mm, Vic's acting in a play for church this sunday, ahah, acting as Jesus's disciple =D.

hoping to get maybe a job at Gloria Jeans, but i need to write up a resume. and i haven't got anything good to write about =P no experience at all. oh wells, i'm just gonna go for it, and pray. =)

just went to the easter show last night and it was good =). saw for the first time how majority of aussie celebrate easter. well, it was good and bad at the same time, seeing the goodness of the aussie outback, the best of the best, heh, and the amount of cow/horse/pig/sheep/goat poo along the street. the easter show comes by every year, where rural farmers come in and compete to see who has the best cow/horse/pig/goat/sheep or rice/barley/blablahblah...etc. yeah and you see amazing things like people using produce to create marvellous pictures like a whole roomfull of apples that shows you the face of mona lisa and so on. and the bad is not only the cow/horse/sheep/goat/pig poo along the streets, but the way people see easter as now, like the exploitation of easter, the way people think of it as a way to sell things and make use of the significant day. i know it's not wrong to celebrate and be happy about the risen Saviour, but it can sometimes get so out of hand and, we all just loose focus of the true and real meaning of easter. and i know what it's like when it gets outta hand, as in the verse tha Jesus said when He visited the temple, ' but you have made it a den of theives' [matthew 21:13], and when martin luther protested against the sale of indulgences by the roman catholic church[which started the protestant revolution, which sparked of many others, such as John Calvin and John Knox, whom they started the Presbytarian church]

so what do u say? i wanna hear. =)

Heya people, typing in this less than a cm box on the screen, ahaha =D, trying to hide it from the teacher behind me as i blog. Suppose to be researching for Geography but i can't borrow anybooks so i might as well go to the library itself. mhmm, and i'm c urrently listening to Jeremy' sblog music 100 years by Five For Fighting, i seriously am in love with it! =P. hiding everything blah, anyway i'm seriously am boring myself out here. bah. hmm. listening to stefan's blog music, Avril's Don't Tell Me. Work Experience next week, and the bell just rung, bye. for now