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loves my God and my family. is a chronic messy room-neat appearence girl.
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//Saturday, March 14, 2009 10:11 pm
rainy day musing
is it possible and natural to feel so much resentment toward a sister? I know in my heart that i'm not supposed to and that it's not right that i'm feeling or thinking these thoughts but they seriously drive me up the wall. there's the alright paying out and then there's the outright no thought for the end results pay out.
could it possibly be them acting out what i've done toward them? that they are only acting like that because i am like that to them? i don't suppose so, but please, tell me if i do cos i want to know and stop that behaviour.
i don't understand how they can feel right in their hearts with themselves and moreso with God when their mouth spouts such degrading and mindless comments and taunts. it scares me even more when i asked one sister whether they ever felt horrible saying all that and that someone else could well be saying the exact same things about them behind their backs, to which she replied, "yea definately, so? I don't care."
i know i might be sounding a little too righteous and that you may think i'm in no position to tell you off, since i might be liable for reproach (from the past deeds that i may have done, that may have well given you grounds to act like this toward me).