this was suppose to be before i had a conversation with pastor mitch, but anyhoos, i'm satisfied. but i just thought maybe you'd like to know what happened.
esp those in the church choir. just wanted to let you know.

thank God first for journey mercies; my dad reached sydney without a scratch and he brought along a whole lot of goodies. =D anyhoos, that's just joy-for-the-moment. what he also brought was the easter concert. sure it was good and all, but i was appalled at the way the songs were portrayed [at first]. the fast actions, clapping and for a moment there, i felt as if i was in a Hillsong's convention [at first alright? i'd explain later. so leave the flames]. i know that as a saved christian, this was pure joy and worship to His Most Highest, but i was worried for the unsaved and just simply deluded few; this might cause them to think that Christianity is fun and that it's simply something that i can sing and bring glory to myself. i was afraid that many would join church for the wrong reasons. i was afraid that some wavering soul within the choir might not even know what they were singing; for God? or for men? where's your heart and soul when you're singing out there on the stage? are you thinking,

'crap, my hair's out of place. i'd look like a goofball out there! how embarassing!! and to think i invited my friends to watch me and here i am stuffing everything up.'

or

'man, i'm so gonna get a role on telly for singing so beautifully; thank God i managed to persuade my friend's cousin's uncle twice removed, who also happens to be a recording manager and stuff. heehee....'

seriously disturbed and weighed down by this, i went online, wanting to write to EVERYONE. in the end, that went down to just pastor charlie, my real good friends in bethany and eventually i found pastor mitch on MSN. THANK GOD. i told him all my confusions and doubts and answered them all. true, there may be a few here and there who are coming to church for all the wrong reasons, but we can't stop that, otherwise we're just being exclusive and just plain meanies. so, let the lives of truly saved christians pave the way for deluded, un-saved people. 'and let your light so shine before men, that they may see your good works, and glorify Your Father in heaven.' so, people, start shining. =)