been evalutating myself...n thinking...mebe i'm just being so selfish...yeah...thinking of myself everyday n stuff...n tt my friendships are all so...weird n twisted...i really think so...yeah...esp the one wif me n black out...yeah...close friends yet not as foreign n unknown as ordinary friends...close but yet...mantaining this distance between ourselves...sososo confused...ahh...was contemplating this whilst i was in the shower...think so much till the water went from hot to cold...sigh...oh well...i've got other things to think abt...so thiss in the meantime will be ignored...mhmm...till i've got time to think abt this...again...gonna really pray abt this loads...n ask for His guidance...sigh...distractions all arnd me...the hustle n bustle of life...sometimes just is too much for me...tt i just stop walking so fast...stop there n then...n just stare into oblivion....