-cries-...i look damn horrendous now...red eyes...but okae...*takes deep breath*

i'm now in Sydney Aussie...yeps...=)...thank God for His journey mercies...i'm still intact thank you very much...theodosius ng zk...tt's theo btw...=P...now SHOO!!!...

okae...theo's gone...yeah...=)

my dear dear cedric...please don't cry...cos other than making me cry...i'll hate myself for making u cry...yeah...i miss u loads...n really...words cannot describe my longing for u...yeah...=)...n i really trust the Lord will keep u safe in His arms...yeah...since i'm not there physically...=)...[i'm actually crying like mad behind this monitor]...as i've said before...i'll say it again...Cedric tay's no dumbass...there's always another tym...=)...and the Lord never leaves His children when they're hurt or heartbroken...'do not fear therefore; YOU are of more value than many sparrows'[matt 10:31]...i remember the time when u scolded me for being cold to the world n tt the Lord gave us Love not hatred...i remember the time when i knew tt tickling was ur weakness point...i remember the time when u accused me of farting [=Dahaha...lol...btw...he farted]...i remember the few times we went out n i really enjoyed myself loads...i remember us foolishly trying to run away from my parents n try to hide it [tho now it's all known to my parents...]...i remember crying till i hyperventilated after leaving julian's place cos i knew tt will be the last tym i may see you...i remember hugging u @ the airport n wishing i had said something @ least something to encourage u...i remember crying like shit on board the plane, regretting not saying anything meaningful to u dear n to the many others in church who had come n sent me off...i remember still crying myself to sleep last night...i remember the song on the CD Ruth burnt for me, one particular song...

Be Still
Be still, my soul. The Lord is your side.
Bear patiently, the cross of grief or pain.
Leave to Your God, to order and provide.
In every change, He faithful will remain.
Be still, my soul. Your best, your heavenly friend.
Through thorny waves leads to a joyful end.

Be still, my soul. Your God will undertake
To guide the future, as he has the past.
Your hope, your confidence, let nothing shake.
All now mysterious shall be bright, at last.
Be still, my soul. The waves and winds still know.
His voice who ruled them, while he lived below

Be still, my soul,

Be still, my soul,

Be still.

may this song bring comfort to u dear...n to all who've cried wif me last night...to andrea[u'll be remembered thru all the bitching n crying together...] sam[i'll never forget you...FHM duzzen look nice wif red eyes heh...] deb[u made me cry first!...=)...will really miss u...n all the tyms u tompang car ride baq home...] ame&cheryln&tianchuang&weining&eunice&rachel&yuchern[may we continue in this faith dedicatedly...jiayou!this year Os leh...kanchiong liao...] benc&benq&banghao&yusiang&andrew[fellow trees in Christ...u too will be taking Os...so u too better jiayou too!!...except bang larh...he can still relax for one more year...] josh&shermt&anthony[this year will be a trying year for u...JC...but in all things...put God first...] zhihui&lori&kathy&man&ruth[thank you for talking to me...when i felt aloof in church @ tt tym...n trying to pester me into revealing stuff...esp zh...] edlyn&julian[edlyn:thank you for organizing the games day! julian:for letting ur house be wreaked by all of us] julian&andrew[tho i've never exactly spoken to u two real well...take care of cedric for me...=)...tt silly goon of mine can sometimes make me so damn worried...n i'm not there in sg...yeah...=)] rachael&ruth&cherie&ivy&justina&jiaqi[thanks for ur constant notes of encouragement n to ruth...thank you very much for the CD...]

did i miss anyone out?...tell me in my comment box above...=)...ciaoz ppl...