i'm so kidding myself, heh...tell myself to go research and i end up bloghopping as i always do, and tell me what time it is man...2.35am, siao eh? ERGH

anyway, i guess i'm just not going to do research today and end up a walking zombiefied-panda this evening, ah well, who cares. i survive anyway. heh. i need spongebob squarepants!! need the rehabilitation. sigh.

they say that in every life some rain must fall. for the pain is no respecter of the mighty or the small. but sometimes, it just seems so unfair. to see the one who has more than his share, oh it makes you wonder why. and Lord i wouldn't second guess Your mighty plan, for i know You have a purpose that's beyond the scope of man. if you look inside my heart you will find, that i have always been the trusting kind. oh but still i wonder why.

yeah we all do, and i do so much sometimes i just wish that i could slap myself for doubting so much, and that song stood out to me so much, being that i've constantly been talking to pastor mitch abt this. and he tells me that he pushes these negative thoughts out, while pastor charlie just thinks abt all the love God has shown to him and think, would God ever do such a thing as to hurt you? He's changing me, my precious Saviour. i'm not the same person that i used to be. sometimes it's slow going, but there's a knowing. that one day, Perfect [!] i will be. =) love that kiddie song, remember vicky singing that with the bss then. ahahah =)

sometimes, we just need to be a Child again, to see the world in a myriad of colours as a child's mind would, to have the simple and doubt-free faith of a child, to have the never-ending love of a child.